I need to rant . Like seriously now.
Firstly i'm having Fking fever and bloody flu which made all the food i taste so crappy and i love food _|_ I'm feeling so uncomfortable and nothing is going my way at all. Just quarrelled with bi over facebook matters and tmr's class outing and so many interlinked matters and also my freedom that never fails to play a part in our quarrels.

I reeally hate my freedom to the core but there is nothing i can do to change anything but slowly wait for myself to grow up. I'm sorry for having such pathetic freedom, i don't want it either.

I know you don't like others to know matters about us but just want you to know i'm not having it better in fact worse because im the cause of all this all i know.

Am i being too strict on you? Should we give each other more personal spaces? Is that what you want? Or maybe i'm just too selfish?
I really don't know what to do Signs ..



I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry dear )':

How can you say such irresponsible words?
I'm losing faith signs ..

1,2,3,4 days since i last blogged, Miss me ? K Craps xD
On thursday it marked the start of my 2week holiday after 3.30 pm xD
Many peers pon-ed lesson that day boo ~~~ So after school i went to Jurong Point with the rest. Only remembered i had Long John Silver for lunch/dinner then walk walk around and trained home :) I hate it when some of my classmates are too haughty, they can naturally speak english well and i beleieve this have something to do with their parents and also upbringing while for my case, i don't really speak english at home plus my parents are not really those high-education kind so very obviously i speak broken english and sometimes i use words like "Siah, Walao". So this classmate of mine (I call her Op) keep on saying i'm like an ah lian because ah lian cannot speak english well plus i put on makeup and ah lians are like " bimbos, stupid stupid one". In her dictionary anyway. Firstly, you can't speak chinese to save your life so shut the hell up (She said her whole family speaks english at home) Secondly, you put on makeup (Eyeliners) too so stop being so mindful of that or do i sense jealousy from you? Thirdly if you are that smart then you won't be in Rp just like me because if i'm stupid you aren't any better get it in your head please :) And last but not least, stop saying my eyes is small. I know that since the day i'm born and i don't need you to keep on rubbing salt on my wound. Do you like people commenting on your oils? We all know you are obese but we kept quiet so as not to hurt your feelings but you are just not being appreciative huh? So fine, You are FAT . Get it biatch? (She actually say eh i want see your lashes, then she look and say "aiya your eyes too small") Like wtf seriously? Spoiler ttm. Tsk.

Friday was Vesak day ! Did your enjoy the public holiday?
I sure do because i spent it with baobeh ! Loveloves.
We went to Marina Square as baby wanted to cut his hair. Although he already booked an appointment with chap2 @ 6pm but due to heavy human traffic at MS = More people cutting their hair @ chap2 so we were told to come back after 20min ++ so i dragged baby to the catch-bearbear machines place as it is just opposite :x Baby is always scare when we walk past those machines because i will use those kelian face and say our son (The giant stitch)is struck inside the machine then we need to save it out as he want to reunite with the other stitchs at home or i will stand at the machines stare at the hello kitty inside hehe xD Laogong promised to bring me go play someday lol, hope that some day will arrive soon ! anyway there is a new machine there call jackpot or something then you need to shoot the shark/fish to get the jackpot then there is coin rolling out if you win. Still don't understand the game though but it seems fun ! After baobeh had his haircut we headed home as my mum want me to have dinner with them -_- Picts before proceeding to saturday update wakaka ~




Saturday was spent with darling again, we played lan @ Dg and i really love the keyboard there laaa. Even though baby had the same kb but those at Jcube is really easy to press! probably due to after countless people using it ~ papa brought me a new kb but then the button is so stiff/hard ROAR~ Afterwards we had shared LJS as lunch, walk walk awhile then headed to Bi's place. Missed Bi mama's cooking so much and finally able to eat it YAY ! Mama's cooking will always be more delicious than my mother's cooking booo + more dish too :D I found out something that made me utterly pissed off @ baby's cupboard. Ignored Bi for quite awhile but he's a cheater bug so anyway we somehow patch up afterwards and now i'm the master and he's the slave. He need to call me 'master wife' wahahah! evil laughs* :) Baby bused home with me and then bused again back to his home <3 and now i'm having a right bloodshot eye )': My stupid damn blue geo lens still haven arrive -_-









Looking more 'black' as usual as i'm trying out new look hehe :x

Thank You

Freedom or Love ?
Which will you choose if you are given only these 2 choices?
Suddenly this thought came into my mind ~
God gave me a perfect love (to me <3) but limited freedom and yes, i know my lovelife would had sucked if i have freedom so i know i am the luckiest girl to have him in my life, he covered my lack of freedom and make it better for me although occasionally there will be complaints but i don't blame him :B
And so what if i have freedom, there won't be anyone to spent it with me so it already beats the purpose of having freedom so i'm actually quite relieved i am given love instead of freedom + one day i will definitely grow up and my parents can't be restricting me forever :) But i still complaint frequently about my lack of freedom to baby lol , ok sidetracked abit :P
I can't have the best of both world i know if not my life would had been perfect ..
But nothing is perfect and how true it is although rarely one would rethink back on 'Nothing/No one is perfect' when you saw those really pretty models who have great boyfriend, unlimited freedom, Earns their own $$$ and also life is constantly sailing smoothly for them. I am not afraid to admit i really do envy them but i know nothing can be already done so i'm still trying to acept my flaws slowly. I have a weird habbit and that is to look at pretty girls/ girls who caught my attention* rather than guys i swear! My poly friends even say i am confused about my gender lolol -_-

This paragraph below is added in because my dear baby misunderstood about me posting 'Freedom or Love?' in my fb so i'm here to explain my stand.
Firstly, why am i always complainting about my lack of freedom is beacuse of you.
I want to spent more time with you because the time we spend together is never enough for me. I felt so guilty that you are someone who have total freedom but i'm the complete opposite and i always can't accompany you for long .. You know in the past, i am not as upset about my freedom issue than now. Last time i won't mind so much that i need to go home before 10pm in fact it is enough for me and the most saddening is that i have to reject his family when they invited me to go have dinner with them all and its all because i fucking can't go out on sunday. I really really would rather eat with his family than mine, and i'm so afraid that one day his parents will have bad impression and stop inviting me for their family gathering.. (im not someone who can make people like me and they are my boyfriend's parents so you can imagine how important all this is to me D: ) I have a damn freaking curfew which means i have to go home before 10pm and thats only for saturday, now my unreasonable 'mother' insist that i must reach home by 9pm. FML seriously, and on weekdays if i came home just before 10pm i would had been made mincemeat out of.

and one more is Yj having a chalet soon, i really do want to ton with baby so damn much hais. Is like all my friends are bringing their boyfriend and staying overnight spenting time with each other while i need to reach home before 10, the feeling is like seeing Ben&Jerry icecream waffles in front of you but you just can't gobble it down ....

Just finished packing up some of my stuffs as my table is like a pigsty + transferred my items in my old bag to the new bag that baby brought (Happpy) :D! yet i'm afraid i will make it black black >.< Anyway, i wanna go gaigai ! Anyone? I'm having math UT tomorrow which i know nuts about & i'm still daydreaming Pfft.

Shall make a list of the things i'm craving for
- BB cream
- Lipstick/concealer (Nude)
- Dark blue ribbon wedges !
- Light denim shirt (preferably longer length so can be wore as dress/shirt)
So that's all for now, $$$ is tight so ya if not my list would definitely be endless boo :')

Only those 'long-term' one i will put in the wishlist on the right side >> :B

Btw, i had science UT on last thursday & i sucked badly when everyone claimed it's easy. Everyone was like "I think it is easy what!" Arrgh, gona be faceless when the facilitator show us our grades zzz. Science suck & always will !!!

I want to play audition with my laptop but somehow the keyboard (Not laptop's) don't seem to be working D:

On the end note, it is baobeh's sister's birthday today !
Happy Birthday baby's jiehjieh :DDD
Forgot to add in yesterday, we were walking around Tangs @ Vivo city to find a suitable present for her. We wanted to buy makeup since she will definitely use it. Initially was planning to buy her Chanel powder foundation (@$82)/ Anna Sui foundation (@$74)/ SKll toner (@$89). Fucking ex but no choice as his sister is 27 years old and i should say earning quite a bit so we can't just buy any alibaba brand for her LOL. The problem is we don't know which shade she is using so baby msged her and ask but she said that she forgot and she is already using Chanel's foundation so the chanel foundation is out and also the anna sui foundation (I think chanel is a much better brand than Anna sui so probably she won't even use it). As for the SKll toner, her sister said it is useless so we thought of buying the SKll essence (I dk what the hell it is for) but it cost $99 for the smallest bottle which is completely out of our price range so we ended up not buying anything after wasting so much time in Tangs lolol -_- I felt so embarrassed when i'm asking the price of the foundation all this because baby say girls' things he don't want to ask so i'm forced to do so for the sake of jiehjieh hehe :B It is very obvious i am not those kind who can make people blind when i open my wallet (Too much cashnotes), instead you only see flies flying out Roar just joking (Not to the extent of flies making their home in my wallet at least i have coins ok ! :B) + I definitely don't look the age to be using Chanel/Anna Sui/SKll. Nevermind, soon it will be my turn to be a real lady in future .. NOT ! :')




New backpack <3



The 2 things i can never be w/o other than ♥ - Eye drops & Lipbalm !