Ohya i forget to add in today is my first attempt at cooking fried rice and baby say it is niceeee. Like happy only or maybe baby give me face hehe but hope my naughty boy can feel the sweetness muacks !!

Anyway, today i encounter something on the way home just now. There is this malay couple who can't stop kissing & they are standing beside me unfortunately. The atmosphere seemed wrong but i just act blur lolol. I don't get what's so romantic about kissing in a jerky bus full of people that they can't even get a room anyway -.- Then sometimes later, i don't know how they kiss kiss till they keep shifting behind and the guy bumped into me. Normal reaction is to at least glance right of what bumped into you then his girlfriend stare at me with those irritating big eyes like i want to steal her boyfriend right under her nose like that. Ok la i lose her eyes bigger than me -_- Firstly, how the hell can your kiss till invade my little space, i paid my busfare kay -.-. Secondly, your bf is a MUD and a ugly one. Thirdly, maybe i'm being a little racist but i associate MUD with guys who are irresponsible bastards + girls who love to get-pregnant-easily-&-abort like it doesn't mean anything. But there's still the 10% who are pure though :D

She imitating the picture behind her hehehe :x

Those pictures above are super longtime ago because birthday girl doesn't want to take picture with me Kns :B

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NG YUANYUAN JUNNNNNNNNN <3 Although you're 17 before me but don't be too action LOL :B I hope you have fun with you Yanjun next week and leave one day for the guys to finally know each other okie Hehehe :)))

Ohya, my father brought me eyepiece cause he say got diamonds (fake) beside very nice lol. Random but appreciated ! & i'm sipping tea because my father force me to (He say can get rid of the oils in my body because i alway eat junkfood >.<) and one more he just now action his new bag to me which cost $12 then got free hp pounch still dangle in his hands give me see so he very haolian heheheh xD

I'll come back to blog in details soon ! Been hectic this week and also last week ): Unhappy & also happy things .

And lastly i love my baby Gary because he sooo cute, totally random i know but Spam loves* anyway <3


Not looking at camera* :B

I look like some kuku here >.<

My cutest boy <3

Goodnight earthlings !

Today My friends was telling me storys about their hamster which tempt me to buy one myself ! So funny one, got one of my friend's hamster died because of obesity, another one because he ate curry leaf and died with the gua zi still in the mouth and one died because of electric shock. Ok quite saddist atcually lolol. So i decided if ever one day i want to get hamster, i want a Pearl White one with Bigbig eyes and i will name it Aiko Chua ! (Aiko means little loved one in Jap)or if a male one then i will name it Ryu Chua (Ryu means Dragon in Jap) :) Hope Aiko/Ryu will have a habbit of bathing excessively to keep it furs white lolol :x Still trying to psyco baby in progress HINTS*



I'm still worried the hamster will bite me or something x.x

Gonna post up some of the picts took on last saturday double date ! Yj & Bf + Bi & Me went to PasirRis beach and initial plan was to fly kite but then when we reached there we realize the kite got no string + it started to rain awhile more -_- So we went to Ehub and walkwalk till about 6 plus then went to meet baby's friend before going to his friend's 21st birthday party @ Aranda countryclub. The place was quite cool like a house and i heard it cost a bomb with the buffet all this, the birthday boy even have like photographer going around to take pictures of him. Baby's 21st birthday last year was lavishly celebrated too, he organised a chalet and well i wasn't the female lead it was someone else Zzz. I still don't get why 21st is the most important birthday though. I became mute when i was at there almost invisible lolol joke. No one talk to me at all not even say hi while baby was acting shy around his friends boo -.- Hahaha anyway, stupid Yj don't want take photo with me ): we wear so identical luh that day ! Both wearing black tanktop with denim shorts, same pair of slippers, same beanie but different colour even our lashies are the same LOLOL so its a pity there is no picture <3













Tomorrow is our long-awaited 1st anniversary !!! WheeeeeWheeees tons of love <3<3<3

Photos post today !
of some webcam photos took earlier @ school and also my cute businessman <333 ~









Spot my pink hello kitty waterbottle ! :)

I had another encounter with crazy bitch @ home and this is what happened this time. Bitch & i concindentally are using the same type of towel + same colour. I always put mine in the front but one day the another identical one suddenly appear beside mine for i don't know what reason. Then the bitch did not know which is her towel and she shouted at me to go and see which is my towel because she don't want to carelessly use my towel maybe i have Sars/H1N1 so she's afraid of my towel. She is senile and put her stupid damn towel beside mine and expect me to go and smell both towel like i am some sniffing dog like that so of cause i refused so i told her since u so scare of my towel then just take both put in the washing machine and take new towel out thats all then she replied me saying why should i listen to your words, you should listen to my words. Ya fuck i give u a simple soloution that your pea brain can't think of which solves everything and she turns around to say i'm just being guai lan to her and she tolerate me for a long time already. Thats what i managed to hear anyway as i was watching GG initially and she suddenly come open fire so i blasted the volume so i don't have to hear anything that came out of her crow mouth and then she went on to complain to my father about what a useless daughter he have and so on.

Baby told me before that his sister don't really have a good relationship with his mum at first but now it is the opposite, i always tell him who much i envy his sister that she have a real mother who understands her and they can talk about anything even relationship. How i wish i have a real mother who i can share anything to but instead i have one who behaves like a mad dog, never fails to bark everyday. I would rather have a mother who don't care about me if this is how she show her care but yet i really don't have a clue what kind of 'care' am i being showered with ..

You know what, i'm shutting you out from my heart from my world. Just give my damn pathetic allowance on time and that will be all i'm expecting from you. You never loved me anyway.

I realized that i tend to wear a mask and not show my true self to people who i feel that doesn't care about me because today i wasn't feeling right inside but when i meet up with my classmates to school, i automatic start behaving normal, talk and joke like it isn't yesterday that my 'mother' stare at me for no reason with the face that gave me the feeling that she really dislike me. Maybe this what we call, distracting myself so that i won't remember that the pain that i felt inside is real and it actually hurt.

I'm sure they would have read my post on fb as even those who are not as close to me commented on my post and even a simple cheer up let me know that they care but no nothing. It's such a irony to say that i go to school with these 2 girls everyday, had lunch break together and go home after school together EVERYDAY but yet they mention absolutely nothing at all. Is it really that hard to just ask if i am okay? Their failure to even type a simple 'cheer up' already shows everything, i should not expect too much.

Today met baby after school yay ! Happy girl <3
Me and baby are like heaven & Earth, clothing i meant. He was wearing formal with his shirt tugged in neatly with belt everything while for me i was wearing a superman shirt + black skinny + sneakers and i'm 100% free from any form of make-up so you can already imagine what a kuku i looked like standing beside him. -.- People must be thinking what this grown-up is doing with the young girl who looked like boyboy LOL. Okay today was one of my classmate's birthday so there were oreo cheese cake to eat :) as in not the fake cheese cake i always eat but the authetic one. Damn shiok while eating it but after eating one piece you would probably feel quite sick of it already due to the strong cheese smell+taste but it's still very nice if you eat it once in awhile. It is extremely sinful yet a form of satisfaction xD We had dinner @ ClarkeQuay's full house and sat awhile by the river admiring the scenery (Not the river which is actually very gross, how nice if singapore have clear blue river, seas or whatever) looking at the boats going by and just basically enjoying each other's company~ There will be boats passing by at a few minutes interval and the passengers onboard were so hilarious, they were waving to the people as the boat passed by as if they are some celebrity or something.

Ohya i remembered something about fucking oily. She asked me about my grades and i refused to tell her but she kept on pressing me. (she claimed she is very curious to know my grades as i always use facebook and all that like ahlian ahlian never study one) how would you feel if you are in my shoes? Obviously thinking this fat oily bitch is looking down on me right? so i replied saying "you are like looking down on me, expect me to fail isit?" She said "i know you pass but i just want know what grades you get, i get 2 C leh nevermind one." I replied, "Same one C for math, one C+ for science" then she say "Oh~, i expected an A you know but i got C" Fucking action when she's nowhere better and i don't get why she need to boast about her Bf (My bf so tall blahblahblah.) when he's oily too + looked like a pig -.- and i really don't know why she just love to put all her attention on me when i have make-up on and with no make-up on. Our conversation goes like this when she asked me about my plans.
Oily: So where you going later?
Me: Novena
Oily: Why? i thought you don't stay there?
Me: Meet my Bf.
Oily: Huh? Serious? Wah you today never makeup, your bf see the REAL you before? like not the fake with makeup and fake eyelashes? (I don't know why but she love to emphasis on the 'fake'.)
Me: Obviously, duh? -Getting pissed off already
Oily: Oh, cause some girls can be very very fake one but its good that your bf saw the real you before. -Smiles- (still got the cheek to smile _|_)
I just walked off to my seat. Ok fucking whore seriously, stop being so freaking jealous of me can zzz. You act like you don't like fake things but in fact you love fake things so much just go and buy fake eyelashes and paste it on your eyes lah since you should have saved up a lot of $$$ with your shedding fats and oils plan by not eating in school. Since day one she aimed everything that is fake about me from my fake glasses which i wore for fun to school to my fake lashes and if one day i never wear she will surely ask "Eh why today never wear fake glasses/fake eyelashes?". One thing i wanna point out is, all girls are vain however hard you are unwilling to admit and which girl rather be ugly? I don't have a pair of double-lidded big barbiedoll eyes then what am i supposed to do? have surgery? fucking brainless seriously. Hmm at least i will not cause oil spillage that came out from your body when you die, flooding the whole area with your oils is like the most freaking grossest thing ever.

I admit i'm fake so? You can't even be fake however much you want. Face the facts.

Another crazy bitch award would go to my fucking 'mother'. I swear i did not do anything wrong and all i did was walked but this crazy bitch literally stared at me as i walked past with the jiao bin that i really want to dig out her fugly eyes. Are you even a mother? Just because you are in a bad mood doesn't give you the rights to treat me this way. I TOTALLY DON'T DESERVE THIS KIND OF TREATMENT YOU 100% CRAZY BITCH. I can't wait to be free from all this craps, i can't wait to get out from this house, away from this woman away from all this fucking shit that is happening.

I'm so pissed off that i can't think properly and this is the record-least words that i wrote for my Rj. I had enough of all this and i swear if that cheebye fat bitch at class try to offend me again, i will make her fuck her life, try me.

First day of school was sorta okok except a female teammate in my team is having the monday blues for i-don't-care-what reason and was sulky and kinda spoils the team spirit for the day + we are a 4 man team instead of 5. I ended class late for about 30minutes and then went to meet Yj who waited for me so long, so sorry! <3 We went to my ex school F.s.s first to collect my certificate & testimonial. The damn D7 looked so ugly on my cert ARGH ):

Met Shirlaine and we went to Bpp to patronise the newly openned Daiso! Wahahah, me & Yj like 2 aunties like that take this take that while Shirlaine looked kind of bored while we were enjoying being aunties LOL >.< So we brought couple beanies, she brown-white while for me black-white :B I also brought 3pairs of sock in which one is too small for my giant feet, didn't notice the measurement Grrr and a pinkpink blusher because it looked cute but i'm afraid $2 items can't be trustable later my cheeks swollen or something CHOY O.O

After Daiso, we walked around somemore and spent quite a longtime at Watson deciding on which lipstick to get. I wanted to get nude beige but all the colours looked weird like brownish? Anyway there's a 20% sale going on which attracted both aunties hehe but in the end we ended with nothing and went to sit at the baby's room in the toilet. The 3 of us crapping all the way till shirlaine's mum call so it's our signal to go home already + my feet is aching badly. Baby accompanied me to chat on phone while i took bus 922 for the lst time home.

My babyboy went to sleep without me and now i'm going to join him ler. I miss my bombom so much ):

Had dinner with 2 families and i ate like the most mantou and the least rice :B The reason being (It is very rare when i can't finish one bowl of rice sad to say) could be after i saw my 10years old cousin eating frog's leg and then crab's leg and fish eye with the socket and eyeball all, i can't help losing appetitte and she happened to sit beside me. I was like so amazed at the way she was enjoying the so called 'good' food, she was particularly kissing the crab claws or something and even produce those kissing-like sounds, but it was no where as gross when she digged the eye out of the curry fishhead we were having and like remove the eyeball from the socket and consume the fish socket first. OH MY GAWD.
Me: Amanda, nice anot the socket?
A: Nice! taste like jellyjelly one. Smiles*

Me and her sister were giving the grossed ttm face but she don't seemed to mind anyway after everyone saw that scene, my father was sharing story with everyone about me being a loser in appreciating these 'good' stuffs and asking me to eat chinese medicine or anything that even taste bitter is like asking me to chop my head off. Dirty linen should not be aired in public la pa! LOl -_- anyway i had a small tiff with baby earlier and i think we ignored each other for 2 hours but i missed him so much already. Die i'm lousy hehe <3

Tomorrow is an official school day for Rp! Boo boo boo, i prefer being an night monster than waking up early everyday ): Argh, i need to go hang clothes already and prepare for school day. Bu kai xin*





It would be best if i had a eyepiece strucked in my ear and i can choose when to hear things and when not to and a good example is when i can shut out the words that 'mother'-fucker is uttering to me which i don't want to hear like most of the times except when she's calling me to return the money she owns me. There is no love just hatred.

Today my poor boy's energy bar was pretty much empty so pardon us for looking uber shagged in our photos lolol.



Baby thought that if he open his eyes bigbig then he won't look so shag lol. Sooooo cute one, you can't fool anyone silly bom <3

So we nua-ed away most of the day because baby was v. tired and also very hot at the same time. Worried die when i was sweating yet he was covering himself with the blanket when his body temperature was so high! ): Luckily after he slept, his body temperature went down to normal but he started coughing instead >.
It was still early when we finished dinner so we decided to stroll around orchard road enjoy the night breeze and we ended up in 313@sommerset because i wanted to see if Cheena Obasan's shop closed down already anot (L'arc en ciel)(It is a miracle how a cheena woman thought of a french shopname and it sound rather high-class too but the saying that 'what you see may not be always what you get' is true because the things they sold are overly-priced x2 for e.g a lousy obiang hairband for $9 and this happens to be the 'sale' price and while a non-sale hairband can cost $35++. Seriously who in the right mind would throw $$$ away like that? and the boss so gross-looking worser than a lizard which is like the creepiest ever. The last word to be ever associated with her/him (That boss could be a transvesite who knows right?) would be 'pretty'. 5 words Y.U.C.K.S. I am being super judgemental now because she is the fucking pcb uglier-than-lizard CHEENA with breath like she never know the usage of a toothbrush who ate up my $86. It's okay, eat up my $86, i will treat it like an unavoidable sacrifice. May you perish in hell you whore/ slut/ bitch/ disfigured + kena train ram over 10000000times face/ si ah gua !!! Ok, not going to talk about ah gua anymore, wasting the spaces of my blog which is too precious for him/her anyway. That bloody shop is still opened for business !! ARRGH, OH FUCK THAT AH GUA FACE.

We walked in Zara as i tempted baby to buy the i don't know what is the proper name. Tuxedo or something? those suit that businessman wore but in his case, It is made of a material much casual-looking than a businessman suit but still thick and quite attention-grabbing to me anyway<3 and which one would probably suffer from heat-stroke just by wearing it on a singapore afternoon. We singaporeans exchanged war for the sweaty weather i guess so peace in singapore = BTH like you can't help but curse weather :S Then we went to chameleon and i brought a blusher brush & a scarf-like thingy which was supposed to serve as a headband to me when i tie it around my head. I bused home alone so as to let baby reach home earlier because mama da ren specifically say so :x

My boy is already fast asleep and he should be in his Alice-in-the-wonderland dream ler, joke lol :B By the way, It's like 2+ am midnight and there is 4 people awake including me. My cousin & elder brother are wacthing worldcup shouting "GOAL" here and there -_- while the younger one i don't know what he's doing and i don't care either while me blogging & watching GG :O I tried the Fold-the-scarf-into-a-headband (I anyhow fold) and it looked abit overly mature on me. This is very random i know lolll, kays back to my gossip girl.





Sweetdreams everyone~

The 3 female leads from GG: Jenny (the 15year old!), Serena & Blair.

I didn't slept well last night and now having a aching neck~ The day already is already starting to suck because the weather is a bitch and even more when the crazy tigress scolded me randomly because i keep on going out which i don't provided i am having a holiday now and what's the purpose of staying home and facing the computer during a holiday? + i came home well within my curfew which is before 10pm. Wtf, I don't get what is in the minds of these older people really, maybe me becoming a lifeless zombie is what she wants -_-

Ya i keep on complaining but nothing is going to change that's what baby told me but i'm still not gonna stop because complaining is way better than sinking into depression of why my 17'years'old life sucked so much and when the hell will all of this end?! The holidays is coming to an end soon sad to say and the horror of presentation and Rjs everyday is coming back to haunt me. I didn't enter the RP website since the start of the holiday and i can safely say i forgot at least 50% of what i had learned. Good job for me i know and the grades or should i say my first Gpa grades will be reaveled which means doomsday is arriving when school starts. FML because i have a lot of confidence that i will flunk with flying colours which is not a thing to rejoice for. FML again beacause my class contains a lot of smart ass and i'm not one of them.

I'm going to die from complete embarassment so please attend my funeral even though i don't have the $$$ to put my big face in the obituary page if it even requires $$$ lah i don't know -_- Wait, i guess i will just die a silent death and probably act like i don't care a hoot about my grades since i diedie also want to avoid letting those action-pack ass see my 'I am a loser' face if i can help it of cause ESPECIALLY Oily girl whose habbit is to 'carelessly' show people her impressive cleavage. I can predict that she will be like "Hey guys, i got a A !, yay or something". Someone please fuck her life btw i think someone already did -.- kays, i'm evil only to her and i know i should not be judging people BUT this girl here apparently judged me from head to toe right from the start and i guess she might be in love with me because she apparently scrutinised my everyday outfit, make-up etc. I don't put on makeup everyday to school, it is ultra tiring if you tried (My eyes plays a big part in stopping me) for my case anyway and when i don't intend to put on make-up that day, my outfit for the day will be very standard, i just throw on any tshirt and a jeans and i'm ready to go + my shoe will be the black ahma school shoe that cost like less than $5. Don't laugh! Although my classmates once teased me about this. Zzz, i'm not going to hide the fact that i'm a cheapskate but it is indeed comfortable right no? Sign, once i get my bloody diploma i swear not to be like this. Pathetic me. Anyway, the part about Oily being in love with me is a joke. It's actually very gross. ~.~

Okay, i don't know who will be reading this post or maybe no1 does but do me a flavour and don't go around spreading cheryl is a cheapo alright ): Kays, i'm so not looking forward to school because of the damn grades which i wish i won't be getting so soon. Sign, i alway tell myself to work hard but everytime i failed. Its like i'm still not mature enough because i keep on getting distracted. OK, not blaming the distraction because i am the one who allowed the distractions to get to me thats why it become a distraction in the first place. If people laughed at me on monday, i will just tell myself because i did not study and i deserve this or not because i may just lose my cool. Okay, i seriously am not in the right mind & sprouting nonsense already. Those who actually read to this part, thanks for giving me faces by reading this ultra long & boring post anyway. Tons of loves <3

Ending with another picture of GG. Apparently they are my current addiction now <3



R.I.P

I just eaten pizza @ 11pm. Omigosh Supper = S.I.N.F.U.L. I had 2 slices of Hawaiian pizza and one piece of chicken wing, wonder how much calories i chalked up which i don't really want to know ): Today i was at baby's house nursing him back to health. I think i did quite a good job because he was all smiley and happy i guess :B I am equally happy too if not more because he was all mine today but the point is it is a weekday, which is rare for him to spent a whole day with me ! So we watched gossip girls and also slept but not alot as that naughty bombom slept at 7pm yesterday and never woken up ever since till when i reach his place at about 12 plus. That sleeping beast -_- We had candlelit dinner with no candles just the part that no1 was in except us and Yuki (Baby's dog but i call her yang meh meh because she is like a sheep all white and furry). Anyway, i had ripple icecream as dessert and baby had like 2 spoonful. I'm not bullying him he chose not to eat :B but on second thought, i think he has a motive because he wanna made me attract lesser attention than him by causing me to grow fatter since his fringe is apparently touching his forehead now. Ok, its a joke but the part about his fringe apparently behaving like a fringe now is true. Bad bad news D: Trained + Bused = home. That's all for today.

Going to watch my GG now and i figured out i need a foolproof plan to defeat baby hands down lolol. D:






Flooding my baby gary with loves !

I had just eaten durians @ 11.30pm and now sipping tea while watching gossip girls :)
Seeing their walk-in wardrode make me feels that life is so unfair and the hugex10 shoe collection ?! Grr. I finished season1 and now watching the next season, the 15 years old puts on full-on eyeliner + red lipstick now. Cool or not? I knew nothing about make-up when i was 15 and still don't have the guts to challenge red lipstick now. I guess i will just scare people when i go out looking like this. Anyway, today's gaigai day with Yj ! I'm broke now thanks to her. Grumbles* Hehehs <3
So my list goes like this :
1) Black-white striped dress (with a small lil ribbon @ the front)
2) Plain white boyfriend shirt-dress (kinda uniform-ish but i <3 it!)
3) Black-white collar top (I think they call it the peterpan top or something?)
4) White flappy skirt (Still don't know how am i going to match it -_-)
5) Hot pink heels (I got a size smaller so i hope the torture will be minimum when i wore it out someday ~_~)
6) Ribbon wedges (Kinda regretted buying it because later on we found a much nicer design which cost the same. Ugly plasticbag with 'Alice' on it lolol)
7) Lower lashies (A much more dramatic one than what i owned currently)
8) Upper lashies (Dramatic straight types one :B)
Total damage done for the day = $78 including the $5 mcspicy meal. Fml ):
Although it is quite shiok to shop so freely and it's been a long time since i done that anyway but I swear not to do this again till like after many many months later. I need a job man like seriously, money fly down from the sky pretty please? would be grateful to the max D: I still need to buy nude lipstick/ lip concealer to conceal away the redness in my lips so i can do justice to my milk-pink lipgloss + i need to get a blusher because for some reason my cheeks were supposed to look pink as indicated by what i see from the casing but it looked sort of reddish instead and i actually thought in the past that maybe if i on more thickly it will eventually look pink but no i was wrong i looked like some monkey's backside (-.-) so this time i will not let the person at sasa cheat me again, swear to get the pinkest one possible this time lolol. Not so soon anyway, my pathetic lousy supply of cash is cut off thanks to loser mother's excurse of not giving pocket money during holidays because "No school give $$$ for what?".

So my day wasn't that good as i thought as i just got reprimanded by the mighty tigress + i'm feeling the pain from spending out of my means. The matter goes like this, Tigress said i was selfish because i hog the internet to myself by downloading many GG episodes at one time so the 2 useless freaks need to spend hell lot of time to even wait for youtube to load because we are sharing the internet access you see. Well, serve them right. Good job done by me ! I'm not born evil is just that i learn from them that kindness=stupidness. Fyi, I only treat them this way, my 'blood-ties siblings' Disgusted* . I pretend i don't know this person when i walk past him in school who is actually my 'brother'. I absolutely have no objection at all to this plan, in fact it would be fab to stay this way because i would be better off not knowing him anyway. If i ever talked to him or him doing so, that's because we need some form of help from each other. 8 letters, P.A.T.H.E.T.I.C = The Ang family. Nevermind, i will be a part of the Chuas in future i hope :)



Maybe i looked abit 'over' here but i definitely am wearing shorts just that it is a shirt-dress as i mention so it was supposed to be longer than a top Lol.



My collar top. This picture already looked like crap (That's why i can never ever be a model no matter how much i wish + my height is not helping one bit -_-) and rest looked even crapier than this is so i'm not gona post :B

Okay, back to my gossip girls.
The high-society world which i will never be a part of sad to say, seems really screwed up and amazing at the same time. The 15 years old just created her designer line and sort of hosted her advertising campaign too. She had since left home due to her father's strong objections (she is a 15 years' old, noones blaming the parents for being so uptight) to pursue her career. GG just get cool-er and cool-er, I am offically addicted. Wahahahah, I wanna be a designer (If i ever have a creative bone in me which i don't) or anything in that sense. Why can't i be anything? Life's too short & boring for me. I wanna grow up up up, i wanna live my life, do what i want. I wished i have the guts like Jenny EMO* Ok joke i'm being crazy lol.
Ciaos !

I'm currently chionging Gossip girls season 1 and had since the morning. I don't know how long my eyes were glued to the screen already >.< Anyway, GG is seriously one total screwed up show lols. Briefly saying, GG is about rich ass teens, branding, backstabing, loads of making out and of cause you know you know*. Kinda M18 contents i guess. Their family is so rich they go to school in limos, those super long one which we will rarely see on the roads, they gets in all kind of trouble and often their parents will clean their ass clean anyway. Girls are all about branding, the season's newest collection and so on and not to forget backstabing, it is quite surprisingly the lengths they go to make their 'enemy' go down, the backstabing can go to the point when a bestfriend actually slept with another bestfriend's girl/guy. Boozing and partying are pratically included in their daily lifes and they are like 16, 17 and even the 15 years old drinks. The offsprings are not the only one doing all this kind of thing, even the parents does such having affair on the wedding day. Good role model indeed huh? -_- Now you know why i said this is a fairly screwed up show but thats what made it interesting because we singaporeans will never really get to experience this kind of screwed up life i guess which sounds fun in some aspects LOLOL. Okay, maybe i should really migrate to the states with baby next time !!! Please magically turn me 19 years old when i wakeup tommorow, i wanna have a real life. This current life i'm living is not, it is kind of bullshyt and would definitely be hell without baby. Sure sucks to be young. ):

If only things weren't so hard

Today was a no life day heheh, because baby and i was sort of tagging heart by playing the couple Bp the whole day and both our dens had jumped by 2million which is like wow and now stupid baby got 18m, that action boy i jealous >.< We still need about 355 hearts though, but darling need to sleep ler as he need to wakeup early the next day awws :B

At around 6pm i went to chinatown thr along with family for dinner. We had mini steamboat and i eat till my stomach going explode lol. The ribena i had was so sweet till i cannot tahan so i drank about 1/4 and my monster brother take and drink all lol -.- My mother and father had a tiff on the way over money issues and my mother was complaining to me saying next time i should not count on guys to earn money for myself instead should have the ability to earn. Siao one she, she wanted my father to give her half of his bonus. Wtf, so my father was telling her he will give her some of the amount she asked for and the rest he will only take out when we 3 children are going overseas. Actually i think it is reasonable, my father alway is the one to fork out the money when we are going overseas and everytime he will be the only one not going every year due to work ): And i seriously don't understand why my weird mother is always complainting about the lack of money when she earns only for herself as my father gave her monthly allowance for the family zzz. Anyway, i reached home at i forget what time and then we continued bp-ing awhile and then chatted on phone for awhile before he went to bed.

We were talking about our past, our super unhappy past and well it included 4 parties actually but i hope they are happy now because we are :) We talked about how fate bought us together, the events that unfolded over the time, the bliss the fear and the inevitable~ I think i eaten way too much vinegar* as i was bombarding baby with questions about his ex relationship laughs* Ok not laughing, i still wanna shoot that girl down someday if i ever get the chance too lol. A jealous girl is a violent one :B So dearest, i guess we are over the crisis period going close to a year now. We are 2 person living in 2 different worlds with polar opposite character and most people would not foresee us being together but we are together and it's a fact that will never change. Thanking god everyday for this precious gift to me <3

Ohya, i had the 'Bf talk' by my father just now. He said don't know who saw me at orchard holding hands with my bf. So i answered and say ya, every girls in orchard road is me -.- so he went on and on about how many girls are cheated by guys and they are wolfs instead of human, he said he know all this because he seen more things than me and he is also a man. So i was wondering are you a wolf yourself? since you said till every guy is one. He Kept on emphasizing on going for inner beauty instead of outer because a handsome guy is a useless one if he can't earns enough $$$ to ensure that the whole family will not suffer. The weirdest thing of all is, he said he gone through my age before it is normal for girls wanting to have a bf but father, i do not have a bf just because i think it is cool, i'm seriously already over that age can zzz yet he still insist that i should complete my diploma get a stable job and then find a boyfriend and that will definitely be after 3 years. It is the 21st century for heaven's sake! I assumed my parents already know that i have a bf but i have no choice but to keep on denying. I'm forever too young and i know it's for my own good but i just want a little bit of understanding and trust ):

Some random picts i found online;



Sad but true ~



This is soo sweet ~

Nights people ..

It's exactly 2.05 am midnight now and i'm still awake while my teddy bear is having his sweetdream already, hope you include me in your sweetdream alright loves hehes

Today was quite a day- Anxiety, nervousness, tiredness, highness & anger all into one. It was the fam of the year competition today ~! I woke up at friggin 8.30 am to prepare you know hehe, this is my first time joining a competion anyway so was quite anxious~ Morning-called baby @ 9am and we both tu tu tu and finally decided to get our butts out of the house at around 10am. The bus took quite long to arrive at my stop so baby arrived first and was complaining until i arrived :/ (Sorry to let you wait nah baobeh, muacks you!<3) so we met and walked around bugis junction while waiting for the others to arrive. We shared Kfc snackers (Popcorn chicken Rocks ttm!) as our breakfast :B. Went to Iluma next to meet Jess & John and we proceed to the top level to register. We were given goodie bags or some market plastic bag with audi characters printed on it lolol. At around 12 the competition officially started and we had drawed our lot and LUCKILY got DcSquad team 2. John face was like panicky and he keep telling us how good they are so baby jokingly say he is DcSquad's people lolol. Baby is like the joker of the day together with his crew members Emp & SX who arrived later as well as jocie but she is not one of the jokers -_-. These 3 jokers keep going on and on about their prediction that we will lose the first match, make us even more stress only and as their prediction we lose very terribly. I was so pissed off when people keep on walking here and there knocking on my chair and make me distracted so some censored words fly out my mouth :B Although even if people don't knock on my chair, i guess there won't be much difference because we are losing behind by about 1m as told by baby. ONE MILLION POINTS, Kalgorion & poodle is 2 pervertic player seriously. When i saw the x10, i was like FML -.- Even jess's x14 can't help much because they are constantly sync-perfecting and red faces keep appearing non-stop while for me i don't rmb chaining much sobs ): Ok, next 2 round was also the same stupid song so shall not elaborate more since the result is same just not as exxagerating as the 1st.

The results are announced after a long while and we got in top 16 yeah ! :) Next lot we got is against Club-audition which is the mighty audition forum moderators. Their name sounds so nice, sound so important, the ones who maintain the forum but actually they are a piece of shit. They were standing behind us and maybe they just don't realise that and after hearing the lot happily say Grandeur is lousy not to be scare something like that. Seriously, even if your are the mighty audi forum moderators or whatever shit, that still doesn't give you any reason to look down on us. We are rank 8th fam in audition, what about your? Sickening creatures really. Is not like we don't have the talents in our fam to win your hands down, just that they don't wanna come for the competition -.- Anyway, we still lost but just a little and defintely not like DcSquad when we lost till we momentarily forgot our name. lol, joke :B I don't care what bi said, but i believe Grandeur just did not find the right time to shine <3 Gambatteh Grandeur, we rocks especially Jess & Jocie ! <3

After all the chaos ended, we went to Marina Square and had dinner first as the guys were complainting non-stop of hunger especially baby, so cute one <3 I had rendang with rice while baby had grilled chicken rice. After eating our early dinner we went to the catch bear bear machines place and baby caught me about 5 mini flurry things with 10<20 dollars which is super bohua, maybe we just don't have the skills :P Anyway, i think doling this kind of business will earn a lot of $$$, nexttime shall consider doing this kind of business if i ever have the capital .. in my dreams. Jess & the rest went to watch Nightmare at Elm's street (M18 movie) while baby send me home and the reason we skipped it because it would end rather late, tigress not happy + its a M18 movie (Basically everyone is about the legal age except for me & i don't wanna be kicked out D:) + I have a weak heart and i can't really take horror flicks and Freddy is super gross ~_~ . We shared grape smoothie and then bused home. Laogong is a super naughty boy, beh paiseh one heheh :P

Okay, it's 3am now (I bet baby going to scold me tommorrow when he sees this lol) so i'm going to have my beauty sleep after posting some pictures i took with my webcammy :B






Baby kitty :D



My bangs had since grown and i'm still trying to tame it to the side lolol >.<
And lastly ..



Kiss for my one & only boy ! Laopo ai ni, MUACKS MUACKS <3
Nightnight husband ~
Nightnight earthlings ~
& Lights out *

Can't wait ~!

I woke up at around 8-9+ this morning, can't fall back to sleep weird.
So went to have my early breakfast of porridge with fishcakes + salted egg + cai xim. It was piping hot and tasty or perhaps i'm just hungry wahahha. I think my taste buds have gain back their power by 80% ! No wonder first time i didn't complaint about eating porridge heheh :D Done cafe world for bi & me then slept awhile and play audition. I'm so stress about this coming saturday fam competition, i think last year we got top 5 or something. I don't wanna be the black sheep man D: Afterwards the irritating brother wakeup and snatch desktop from me so i got nothing to do so went to eat 2nd bowl of porridge LOLOL. (I'm not fully well so i still can be food monster heheh :B) There were 2 Mr bean pancake in the oven when i wake up and i intended to eat it after audi-ing but it dissappeared when i'm done playing. I guess i'm not the only food monster huh, food in my house must hide one or not sure starve to death lolol -_- Suddenly i feel like drinking yakult original flavour! the one in gold :D One bad news, laogong say he will control my diet from now on because i always anyhow eat then sick lol. Die already he sure torture me one but bi ! there is a rule, if i can't eat you cannot eat too ! You fu tong xiang, you nan tong dang, we are husband and wife remember? <3

I wanna share something. I saw some video of taiwanese girl looking like maid before makeup and transform to a beauty afterwards. The changes are drastically big i swear. Oh god, the wonders of makeup is amazing and not forgetting the power of a good camera and also photoshop! :B
Copy paste "鑽石夜總會 變臉美女" at youtube if you wanna watch, you will think that your eyes is playing tricks on you but never let guys see this they will nosebleed i guess >.< And my stupid boy actually know this kind of video before i do and still got the cheek to tell me the changes so big Grrr -_- Dare to watch again see how you die idiot !


Ohya speaking of saturday, we are going to see some moving Tree and Pole observing us right jess ? Inside jokes opps :B

I AM HUNGRY D: I think i'm an alien from outer space because sick ppl usually lose appetitie while i'm constantly hungry sobs* D: Anyway, fever is gone i guess but why is my taste buds still not coming back ?! I have eaten 6 flu max already can ?! I can taste a little now as compared to yesterday, just a tiny weeny bit though ~ But But i'm still hungry !!! I hope my mum is whipping something delicious Pray* Can't wait lol, ok i sound like some food monster :x Baby is a meanie because he went out with his friends and have good food without telling me ): Nevermind, my food is cominggggg ~ ohya, i had drank 4 cups of liang teh since i fall sick, so proud can. (Actually this liang teh is quite sweet with just a hint of bitterness. I LIKE :D)

Hmm, wondering how many days i had stayed home ? 1,2,3,4 days already.
Wasted 4 days of my short 2week holiday signs D:
I actually wanted to go out today, but no1 wanted to accompany me. Lonely is me D:
4 days is also the number of days i did not see baby ler D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:
Miss that naughty bom bom alot !!!

Weather is being a bitch and my nose is being a bitch too. (Like spoilt water-tap,just keep flowing like nobody's busininess Grr) now i always have a roll of toilet paper stand by -_-

Okay, i'm going to grab food and fill my tummy >.<
Tummy please be a good girl & burn all the calories i consumed alright )':
Too shag to take any picts wahahah, guess no1 want to see my ghostly face also LOL.
Kay, ciaos !