I need to rant . Like seriously now.
Firstly i'm having Fking fever and bloody flu which made all the food i taste so crappy and i love food _|_ I'm feeling so uncomfortable and nothing is going my way at all. Just quarrelled with bi over facebook matters and tmr's class outing and so many interlinked matters and also my freedom that never fails to play a part in our quarrels.

I reeally hate my freedom to the core but there is nothing i can do to change anything but slowly wait for myself to grow up. I'm sorry for having such pathetic freedom, i don't want it either.

I know you don't like others to know matters about us but just want you to know i'm not having it better in fact worse because im the cause of all this all i know.

Am i being too strict on you? Should we give each other more personal spaces? Is that what you want? Or maybe i'm just too selfish?
I really don't know what to do Signs ..



I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry dear )':

How can you say such irresponsible words?
I'm losing faith signs ..

1,2,3,4 days since i last blogged, Miss me ? K Craps xD
On thursday it marked the start of my 2week holiday after 3.30 pm xD
Many peers pon-ed lesson that day boo ~~~ So after school i went to Jurong Point with the rest. Only remembered i had Long John Silver for lunch/dinner then walk walk around and trained home :) I hate it when some of my classmates are too haughty, they can naturally speak english well and i beleieve this have something to do with their parents and also upbringing while for my case, i don't really speak english at home plus my parents are not really those high-education kind so very obviously i speak broken english and sometimes i use words like "Siah, Walao". So this classmate of mine (I call her Op) keep on saying i'm like an ah lian because ah lian cannot speak english well plus i put on makeup and ah lians are like " bimbos, stupid stupid one". In her dictionary anyway. Firstly, you can't speak chinese to save your life so shut the hell up (She said her whole family speaks english at home) Secondly, you put on makeup (Eyeliners) too so stop being so mindful of that or do i sense jealousy from you? Thirdly if you are that smart then you won't be in Rp just like me because if i'm stupid you aren't any better get it in your head please :) And last but not least, stop saying my eyes is small. I know that since the day i'm born and i don't need you to keep on rubbing salt on my wound. Do you like people commenting on your oils? We all know you are obese but we kept quiet so as not to hurt your feelings but you are just not being appreciative huh? So fine, You are FAT . Get it biatch? (She actually say eh i want see your lashes, then she look and say "aiya your eyes too small") Like wtf seriously? Spoiler ttm. Tsk.

Friday was Vesak day ! Did your enjoy the public holiday?
I sure do because i spent it with baobeh ! Loveloves.
We went to Marina Square as baby wanted to cut his hair. Although he already booked an appointment with chap2 @ 6pm but due to heavy human traffic at MS = More people cutting their hair @ chap2 so we were told to come back after 20min ++ so i dragged baby to the catch-bearbear machines place as it is just opposite :x Baby is always scare when we walk past those machines because i will use those kelian face and say our son (The giant stitch)is struck inside the machine then we need to save it out as he want to reunite with the other stitchs at home or i will stand at the machines stare at the hello kitty inside hehe xD Laogong promised to bring me go play someday lol, hope that some day will arrive soon ! anyway there is a new machine there call jackpot or something then you need to shoot the shark/fish to get the jackpot then there is coin rolling out if you win. Still don't understand the game though but it seems fun ! After baobeh had his haircut we headed home as my mum want me to have dinner with them -_- Picts before proceeding to saturday update wakaka ~




Saturday was spent with darling again, we played lan @ Dg and i really love the keyboard there laaa. Even though baby had the same kb but those at Jcube is really easy to press! probably due to after countless people using it ~ papa brought me a new kb but then the button is so stiff/hard ROAR~ Afterwards we had shared LJS as lunch, walk walk awhile then headed to Bi's place. Missed Bi mama's cooking so much and finally able to eat it YAY ! Mama's cooking will always be more delicious than my mother's cooking booo + more dish too :D I found out something that made me utterly pissed off @ baby's cupboard. Ignored Bi for quite awhile but he's a cheater bug so anyway we somehow patch up afterwards and now i'm the master and he's the slave. He need to call me 'master wife' wahahah! evil laughs* :) Baby bused home with me and then bused again back to his home <3 and now i'm having a right bloodshot eye )': My stupid damn blue geo lens still haven arrive -_-









Looking more 'black' as usual as i'm trying out new look hehe :x

Thank You

Freedom or Love ?
Which will you choose if you are given only these 2 choices?
Suddenly this thought came into my mind ~
God gave me a perfect love (to me <3) but limited freedom and yes, i know my lovelife would had sucked if i have freedom so i know i am the luckiest girl to have him in my life, he covered my lack of freedom and make it better for me although occasionally there will be complaints but i don't blame him :B
And so what if i have freedom, there won't be anyone to spent it with me so it already beats the purpose of having freedom so i'm actually quite relieved i am given love instead of freedom + one day i will definitely grow up and my parents can't be restricting me forever :) But i still complaint frequently about my lack of freedom to baby lol , ok sidetracked abit :P
I can't have the best of both world i know if not my life would had been perfect ..
But nothing is perfect and how true it is although rarely one would rethink back on 'Nothing/No one is perfect' when you saw those really pretty models who have great boyfriend, unlimited freedom, Earns their own $$$ and also life is constantly sailing smoothly for them. I am not afraid to admit i really do envy them but i know nothing can be already done so i'm still trying to acept my flaws slowly. I have a weird habbit and that is to look at pretty girls/ girls who caught my attention* rather than guys i swear! My poly friends even say i am confused about my gender lolol -_-

This paragraph below is added in because my dear baby misunderstood about me posting 'Freedom or Love?' in my fb so i'm here to explain my stand.
Firstly, why am i always complainting about my lack of freedom is beacuse of you.
I want to spent more time with you because the time we spend together is never enough for me. I felt so guilty that you are someone who have total freedom but i'm the complete opposite and i always can't accompany you for long .. You know in the past, i am not as upset about my freedom issue than now. Last time i won't mind so much that i need to go home before 10pm in fact it is enough for me and the most saddening is that i have to reject his family when they invited me to go have dinner with them all and its all because i fucking can't go out on sunday. I really really would rather eat with his family than mine, and i'm so afraid that one day his parents will have bad impression and stop inviting me for their family gathering.. (im not someone who can make people like me and they are my boyfriend's parents so you can imagine how important all this is to me D: ) I have a damn freaking curfew which means i have to go home before 10pm and thats only for saturday, now my unreasonable 'mother' insist that i must reach home by 9pm. FML seriously, and on weekdays if i came home just before 10pm i would had been made mincemeat out of.

and one more is Yj having a chalet soon, i really do want to ton with baby so damn much hais. Is like all my friends are bringing their boyfriend and staying overnight spenting time with each other while i need to reach home before 10, the feeling is like seeing Ben&Jerry icecream waffles in front of you but you just can't gobble it down ....

Just finished packing up some of my stuffs as my table is like a pigsty + transferred my items in my old bag to the new bag that baby brought (Happpy) :D! yet i'm afraid i will make it black black >.< Anyway, i wanna go gaigai ! Anyone? I'm having math UT tomorrow which i know nuts about & i'm still daydreaming Pfft.

Shall make a list of the things i'm craving for
- BB cream
- Lipstick/concealer (Nude)
- Dark blue ribbon wedges !
- Light denim shirt (preferably longer length so can be wore as dress/shirt)
So that's all for now, $$$ is tight so ya if not my list would definitely be endless boo :')

Only those 'long-term' one i will put in the wishlist on the right side >> :B

Btw, i had science UT on last thursday & i sucked badly when everyone claimed it's easy. Everyone was like "I think it is easy what!" Arrgh, gona be faceless when the facilitator show us our grades zzz. Science suck & always will !!!

I want to play audition with my laptop but somehow the keyboard (Not laptop's) don't seem to be working D:

On the end note, it is baobeh's sister's birthday today !
Happy Birthday baby's jiehjieh :DDD
Forgot to add in yesterday, we were walking around Tangs @ Vivo city to find a suitable present for her. We wanted to buy makeup since she will definitely use it. Initially was planning to buy her Chanel powder foundation (@$82)/ Anna Sui foundation (@$74)/ SKll toner (@$89). Fucking ex but no choice as his sister is 27 years old and i should say earning quite a bit so we can't just buy any alibaba brand for her LOL. The problem is we don't know which shade she is using so baby msged her and ask but she said that she forgot and she is already using Chanel's foundation so the chanel foundation is out and also the anna sui foundation (I think chanel is a much better brand than Anna sui so probably she won't even use it). As for the SKll toner, her sister said it is useless so we thought of buying the SKll essence (I dk what the hell it is for) but it cost $99 for the smallest bottle which is completely out of our price range so we ended up not buying anything after wasting so much time in Tangs lolol -_- I felt so embarrassed when i'm asking the price of the foundation all this because baby say girls' things he don't want to ask so i'm forced to do so for the sake of jiehjieh hehe :B It is very obvious i am not those kind who can make people blind when i open my wallet (Too much cashnotes), instead you only see flies flying out Roar just joking (Not to the extent of flies making their home in my wallet at least i have coins ok ! :B) + I definitely don't look the age to be using Chanel/Anna Sui/SKll. Nevermind, soon it will be my turn to be a real lady in future .. NOT ! :')




New backpack <3



The 2 things i can never be w/o other than ♥ - Eye drops & Lipbalm !

Boo I'm back !
Today is saturday which is my favourite day, who doesn't love saturdays anwyay? :B
So proud of myself this morning as i woke up quite early w/o the help of the alarm clock (Hp) as i left my handphone at baobeh's bag when i met him on friday & that naughty bombom made me almost get a heart attack when he say he can't find my hp in his bag -_- Then he asked me to call my handphone and check so i called & i heard him say hello in a very cute voice some more. So naughty one Grr >< ! Anyway, my $19.90 bag KO-ed already, the strap is like going to drop off completely soon, all thanks to the 2.3kg fatty bombom lappy. Anyway, the main point is the naughty boy surprised me with a new bag heheheh, i was so shock nah. He actually went to Heeren from his workplace during his lunchtime to buy me that bag ! So sweet nah my husband, Gan dong si can <3<3<3 Nexttime will post a pict of my bag when i'm free now the problem is i got to figure out a way how to ensure that the bag colour won't change from white to black as it is mostly white :B Shall blog abt fri then sat! Friday after school, i went to cwp mac with rp peers and then went to find baobeh :) we went to Taka watson first as my lipbalm had ran out (I can seriously die w/o lipbalm, my lips get dry v easily and i hate those dead skins !). I wanted to buy dolly wink lower lashies too but i can't find. I even asked the sales assistant but their facial expression implied they got no idea what i'm talking about lolol so forget it. I was debating in my mind between Lipice/Nivea/Maybeline (Holly is using that brand of lipbalm) so in the end chose nivea since the sales person reccomend it. She said lipice ain't that good as nivea and more people is using it so well, but then i like the cooling effect (lipice) it have on your lips when you use it and there is flavour too (Grape,apple,lemon). I'm using Nivea hydro sth lipbalm & it is fatter in size than lipice and have no flavour (It smells like vanilla to me though) but it certainly produce good results ! Better than the Guardian lipbalm my mum donate to me one 100x, that lou ya lipbalm put/never put seemed the same ~_~ Afterward we took some peekchas then went to search for food. We brought auntie annie pretzels (Chocolate/Green tea) + Tori-Q (Chicken/Pork) + 5 mini donuts and sat at the fountain there enjoying our mini picnic & also 'show' (Some cpl- Ah beng & ah lian combination was standing at the centre quarrelling where many people were walking to and fro) There was also the ah beng's friend standing near them listening to them quarel lol. He was looking at them helplessly then after awhile he seemed to be bored and look at other places & the funny thing is the ahbeng friend is wearing formal from head to toe + spects those guaiguai toottoot kind while the ahbeng is like you know those typical ahbengs long golden cui hair + long fringe with highlight that covered half of his face and i dk what kind of dressing. They certainly looked weird together, Humans are unpredictable huh LOLOL. They were still quarrelling when we left the place, maybe even last generation de thing also take out and say both diedie also won't give in :O So went home not sweet home .

Saturday, was nua-ing at baobeh's house. Yuki (Bi's dog) looked like a mini sheep so cute one. From the first time i saw her till now she is still this smallsize like shinchan forever won't grow one hehe :P We headed to Vivo @ i dk what time as laogong wanted to buy 'clothing' for his iphone which is his baby, every now and then must change clothes one -_- boo, we had mac-spicy meal for dinner yumyum ! Ohya, i swear i won't ever drink mac's ice lemon tea again because mac's have the crappy-est taste of all i have tasted before seriously. It somehow tasted like they mixed colgate in it, gross ttm.

Ok enough of talking, pictures coming up ! but none on saturday as my hp died on me before i get to take any photo :x















I love hubby's smile here, so cute nah ! LOVES.



Anyway, it's our 11th monthsary today !!!
♥~HAPPY 11TH MONTHSARY MY TEDDY BEAR~♥
♥~HAPPY 335 DAYS TO US~♥ YAYYYYYYYYYYY
I LOVE YOU NAUGHTY BOM BOM :) !

My teddy bear is sleeping nowww ~ Miss that naughty bombom ton tons ♥
Tomorrow there is Organisation Behaviour UT, the most difficult module so far as there are loads of theory & even if i die memorise it i most likely won't be able to answer the rationale question unless i really understand it inside out, Aww shucks !
Ok, i'm gona pray for more Mcqs & less rationale Qs even though i know last minute pray also no use :B I'm currently strucked in my Rj @ 3 and a half sentence so came to blog & maybe some inspiration will magically appear in my mind and let me bomb my way through lolol. Anyway, back to topic. Coming thurday is Science module. WT* I failed science all my 16+ years of living and even a D7 for O'levels EMO. I really don't know how the hell i am going to complete the UT in 45min but i guess it doesn't make much a difference even if i am given more time. I am seriously a hopeless science retard )': Happily thought that i had said goodbye to science forever lastyear, i even more happily thrown away all the science textbooks you know. Huge huge signs .. Ohya, Holly asked me to dye blonde hair accompany her LOL, I bet i will look super ahlian when my classmate already commented that i look like an ahlian w/o makeup + contact lens. Weird people, but even till now i have not dye my hair before but i don't really love the fact that my hair will turn cui & after a period of time the black roots will start growing back & i will have a 2 colour head >.< Trying new things is something fresh & it will cause no harm right? But my teddy bear sure be a wet blanket one heheheh, i dream only can :P
Okay, I'm gona mug hard hard now. NOT ! :B


♥♥♥ ~HAPPY 329 DAYS MY TEDDY BEAR~ ♥♥♥

Retribution upon ..

Thanks for being my pillar of support,
when people were giving me a hard time,
when people just don't give a damn about my feelings,
when i am having problems with my family,
when i am feeling inferior to others ..

Thanks for being the one,
who wipes off the tears from my face when i cry,
the one who always ensure i never go hungry,
the one who say i am beautiful w/o makeup,
the one who will make sure that nobody will bully me,
the one who will try to solve my problem,
the one who love me ..

P.S I need peace ~

A new start !

Today is not a really good day for me, i should say a series of unfortunate events yeah. I was supposed to meet Haha & Holly to walk to sch together in the morning~
but i tot we're meeting at 7.50 at causeway point interchange & my toot hp went haywire the timing is 5.40 am when i was woken up by my father at 7 am -_- so very naturally i assumed i will be late. I did not even have time to bath, brushed my teeth washed my face and off on my way to the lrt station. The lrt also went haywire, it stopped for at least 5min at almost every station. Imagine my fury when i am already rushing for time grrr ! I reached cwp interchange @ around 8.05 so i walked super fast to see if i can catch them while they are walking to sch but i did not see them even when i reached the class. So in the end, i was earlier than them roar ! Even colleen commented that i looked so shag today, result of feeling lousy lol. I was quite upset throughout the day ~ had first UT @ 4 which ended at 4.45 pm, quite glad that i am able to answer every question as there were about 10 mcqs and few rationale questions.

After sch i went to meet my dearest at bishan, the only time of the day i'm looking forward <3 Felt like years that i did not see him even though it is just days as i missed him so so much~ Thanks for waiting for me so long my dear, appreciated muackx. The train ride was so effing long made me think of the unhappy things that happened to me. I was hugging him so tightly when i saw him and maybe because of the familar warmth that i felt it made me went so soft so jelly, the tears are like trying to escape from my eyes but i held it back of cause as i don't wanna spoil the day between us. Anyway, we had Man Jia Le for dinner. I wanted to drink kungfu milktea but the pearls were sold out SAD ! My sweet boy brought me nutella muffins for me to bring home <3



Not going to post much picts up as the rest are @ my facebook. Gelene's 17th birthday celebration at partyworld (:

Exams is tmr. TOMORROW !!! I haven study & i have not done Rj yet.

I feel invisible & pathetic but i don't blame anyone but myself, maybe the problem lies in me. + i tolerated very long ler but its ok . Even those who do not really know me as long can see. I know i'm gona be shoot to death but whatever I'M NOT GOING TO DO THINGS THAT I'M UNWILLING TO ANYMORE. Fuck this kay.
I believe in karma, i get mine you get yours. I'm so stressed up so fucking unhappy i really want to cry my heart out now seriously ..

I hope i wish i pray my life will change for the better please please please ):

Frantic

I MISS YOU GRRRRRRRR ~! D:


Tomorrow gonna meetup with Noelle, Gelene & Yijing for Partyworld for
gel's birthday early celebration at causeway point <3
School still sucked anyway, got 3 Cs & an X. What a job well done -_-
The first UT is on friday & i didn't study one bit. I will definitely flunk science & math ! I simply don't understand why the hell must i study that 2 nemesis subject in Poly again ?! I thought i had bid farewell to them forever after O'level last year ?!?! Awww, i am really in some serious shyt right now .. When will it start raining $$$ instead of raindrops? Shopping/chocolate remedies please? I need my husband like NOWWWWWWWWW >: BULLSHYTTTTZ

Yesterday was my baobeh's 22th birthday !! & i spent it with him of cause <3
The birthday boy received my DIY gifts as well as non-DIY gift. So shiok hor ? :B
I met bi aft sch at causeway pt as time was limited for me + i'm sick ):
I actually went in Swensen and watch baby eat his delicious meal in front of me !
Really oh my tian nah, i never once thought i will go in swensen's and pay without eating LOL. Imagine the torture i am feeling at that time, people fastfood addict luh :P I wanted to treat baby to Gelare waffles because they looked nice but baby was full already. So lousy one, i planned to feed him till he becomes a teddy bear luh ! He send me home afterwards as i was feeling very worn off after the medicine took effect.
Saturday was supposed to be his birthday celebration part 2
But my mother pissed me off badly early morning + woman's sickness + i'm still sick which means cannot anyhow eat + sth embarassing happenned which made me waste $15 -_-
so we decided to postpone to another day. Gary's birthday celebration part2 to be continued ! :) We had dimsum for dinner @ MS and then we sat awhile outside ms chatting about cirgrattes, hotels etc. then bused home now that stupid boy is at dk which pub having drinking session with his friends >.<









I needa cut my fringe soon !
HAPPY 22TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST <333

30 MINUTES MORE TO MY HUSBAND'S BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Back from the doctor's ~ Good news is,
There is no antibiotic prescribed and i requested for tablets instead of those liquid one because i can die taking those/ i will spit it out. -_-
Anyway, i ate my pork porridge and took my medi already. Goodgirl xD
Ohya, not forgetting my peppermint honey i brought for $1.50 LOL
seriously the sweetest liang teh i ever drank if it is even classified as one.
Regretted not buying 2 bottles since the auntie say it is good for the throat ~

Ok enough of me, lets talk about Tavi Gevinson (An American fashion blogger) !



Fyi, she is 13 now !! Mind youuuuuu, if not the coolest ever ~
She started her blog called 'Style Rookie' at a age of ELEVEN
What am i doing at that time? Hmm, i'm a stupid P5 student and i even know how to switch on the computer boo -.- Anywayyys, Tavi don't look like fashion material because she is very nerdy (wear spectacles with short short hair) but she is still cute whatsoever :D She appeared in many magazines cover, French vogue & also Teen Vogue. I'm not naming the rest because i don't even have any slightest idea than Vogue. Just google-search her name if you want to look at her blog. Her english is damn power (ok she's an american but she only 13 what!) and her fashion knowledge can blow people mind away. She had as many as 50k readers imagine that & i'll be the 50k + 1 reader although i don't really understand what she is talking about in her blog xD Maybe one day baby and i should elope to the states <3 She's a regular guest at fashion shows and a muse for designers .. 4 words , ENVY.




But my ultimate love will still be Jap fashion, those kawaii kind ! (:
Nana Suzukiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii ♥



Now you know why i want curls so badly ?
I'm going to wait patiently for my hair to grow long long longgggg (':
I'm predicting major changes someday ! :B
Ok, lets talk about Nana Suzuki my idol !
She is 22 this year which is the same as my baobeh ♥
A popteen model & my favourite among all ~ My makeups are all based on her you know hehe xD but a big pity i don't have her goldfish eye, mine is like the exact opposite ): Ok i can't change a thing even if i complain more so i gotta learn to be satisfied with what i have~ She ♥ pink & I ♥ pink too !
This is Nana w/o makeup ,



Quite different right? This show that we should not be lazy like the saying 'there is no ugly woman only lazy ones' !
But the point is she look good with makeup and thats all that matter.
Guys are realistic, the world is even realistic so who cares? xD

She used to be like this ,

And now this ,



A change of hairstyle & colour really do wonders don't you think ?
Cooler than Tavi nowwwwwwwwww :P

A gibberish post ~ Don't mind me.

I just can't stop complainting to baby~
The more i complaint the more i feel that i am such a loser.
No matter how pretty you are, there will still be people out there that is even prettier than you.Even if you are v v beautiful like dawn young, still there will be people who will be talking bad about you. I don't have any issues about her, she seems perfect to me but still people tell me she's plastic or whatever. No matter how hard you work still there is people who will be better than you eventually. They do not have to work twice as hard to get a better result. I believe everyone including me will have people behind badmouthing you somehow, i'm not any special either. like what Faci gloria said "Who said life is fair? Life is never fair", How true it is .. Must i really be a bootlicker and lick everyone's boot so that my life will be better? Must i really be a person with such lousy character to achieve this kind of goals? There is just too many wrongs in my character that i myself don't even know what i am good in. 'A leopard can never change its spots' is not invented for nothing but i need to change ): I need answers, i need to adapt fast, i need to be smarter, i need to change ..

Laogong's day today ~
Had Burgerking for lunch @ Cineleisure.
We went to TheCathay afterwards and watched IP MAN 2 . A nice + Bloody movie >.<
Cheers to the Chinese's fighting spirit ! :D
There is a part when the old master get punched to death by the Ass angmoh.
Damn sad one, i even cover my eyes but just hearing the punching sounds make me feel like crying But i held it back because baby seems like no emotions one ~
The sound effects is like so loud and the punches seem never-ending ..
Even till his last breath he is still unwilling to give up.
Haiyo should have give up mah, then think of a comeback ):
In the end Ip man gave chance to the angmoh so he didn't die.
Grr should kill him with that last punch, A life for a life ma. Bu shuang nah!
After the movie we went for dinner @ PlazaSing foodcourt.
I brought 3 colourful pompom hair ties :B !
Baby send me home today happy happy <3

Reached home, bathed & switched on lappy. Sth made me extremely pissed.
Seriously just how bitchier can you be ?
Just because you are bigger size doesn't make you any better kay.
Just my luck to know you pcb.